Fredricka Whitfield: What keeps me up at night
April 25, 2021. Summarized by summa-bot.
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CNN anchor Fredricka Whitfield describes her struggle as the mother of a Black teen to maintain journalistic distance during the past year's litany of senseless loss. "My tears flowed for Floyd, and for Black boys and men across the country, including my family members -- all while praying for their protection against evil, ignorance and hate in all forms."
Tears streamed down my face thinking about all of them, taken too soon over the years.
I thought about the inconsolable pain of Daunte Wright's parents Aubrey and Katie Wright, in the most horrible position: burying their child on Thursday in the glare of an unimaginable spotlight after body cam video captured the inexplicable shooting death of their beautiful, promising young son.
And on my husband's side, our kids' 93-year-old great aunt.
That moment and the collective hurt that followed led me to walk away from the TV, sit on the stairs leading to my 16-year-old son's bedroom as he slept, with my face in my hands.
Twenty-five-year-old Ahmaud Arbery was jogging in Brunswick, Georgia, when he was chased down and shot dead.
Even more recently, 20-year-old Daunte Wright shot dead after what started as a traffic stop.
I'm sick with worry.
I'm tired because I can't sleep, worrying about my two sons and daughter -- and other sons and daughters like mine.
This comes at a time when I'm supposed to be over the moon about the milestones ahead for my 16-year-old son, who is nearing the end of his sophomore year in high school, starting his first job in a few weeks and looking forward to trading in his driver's permit for a permanent driver's license in a few months.
My mother is 88 and she still worries about her 60-year-old son -- just as she did when he was a teen.
I'm reflecting on advice given to me when my now teenage son was just 5 or 6.
I shared with Young that I was irked and would have preferred this kind of enlightenment when my son was older.